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| Yeah. Im single.
Here's what went down;
I was up north and we were supposed to come home the 28th but I dunno, shit got fucked so we didn't come home till the 30th. Well Friday ( the 28th; the day I was supposed to come home) J comes up and Jill, Justin, Robby, J, Casey and this other girl all sneak out and hang out.
Wednesday- Justin decided he wanted to break up with Amanda because "they dont have chemestry anymore and he sees her more as a friend". So around 9 pm I called Robby. No awnser. So I figured his mom had the cell phone. Okay. I call Jill. So we're on the phone and around 11pm Justin calls Jill, so Jill clicks back over and tells me she's yelling at Robby and I go "Why?" and she goes " Im not sure " and she clicks back over and then clicks back over to me and goes " Call Robby. He won't awnser for Justin" so I go "...Okay" so I called him twice. No awnser. So Jill 3-ways me and Justin. So I was like " What's going on?" because I had no fucking clue what was going on. Justin tells me Robby asked out Casey. I flipped the fuck out. So we kept trying to call Robby and he wouldn't awnser. We called Casey to see if she was still talking to him and she was like "No" and I made sure Justin told her that he had a girlfriend. Well around 12-12:30 am Justin goes " Oh fuck, Robby's here!". So here's what went down then.
Me: Jill, get Robby to admit that he asked out Casey but don't let him know Im here.
Jill: Ight.
Justin gives Robby the phone
Robby: Hello?
Jill: What are you trying to do?
Robby: What?
Jill: What's going on with you, Casey and Sara?
Robby: Don't worry, I didn't break up with her?
Jill: But what were you trying to do, Cheat on her?
Robby: Basically Yeah
Me: Mother fucker..You just got caught!
So then Robby hung-up on us. Justin called us back and I told Justin to tell Robby that he doesn't have a girlfriend anymore. So yeah.
Thursday- Jill tells me she needs me to call Robby because he called her asking why she was pissed at him. So I did. He couldn't come up with a good reason as to why she shouldn't be pissed at him. I asked him if I was wrong to be so pissed at him and to hate him. He said no. Well, then he tells me that he made out with Casey, while me and him were still together! I hung up on him. He called me back. I was like "Hello?" and he goes "Hi" and I go "FUCK YOU!" and hung up. He calls back: " She came on to me" ; " Then why in the fuck didn't you push her off!? Explain that one!" I hung up again. He calls back. First thing he says "Dont hang up". So finally I don't hang up on him but I go yell at him. I don't mean like just say harsh things I was like yelling at the top of my fucking lungs at him. Eventually he said something and I said " You don't care about me. You never did. " he was like " I never said that" I go " You didn't have to " and he was like " Well I do. " and I was like " What, You did care or you do care?" and he was like " I do" and I was like "Whatever." and then I said something like " You lied to me throughout our whole relationship. You lied to me when you said you loved me. Quit lyin to me!" and he was like " I wasn't lyin" I was like "When? When you said you loved me?" and he goes "Yeah" and I go " You did love me or you do love me" and was like " I do" then I was like like " Bullshit. If you loved me you wouldn't have cheated on me." He kept telling me he loved me. And I kept telling him to quit lyin to me. And everytime he would tell me he wasn't lyin. And I go " You know how fucking hard it is to hate someone who keeps telling you they love you!?" and he was like "Yeah" and I go " I hate the fucking feeling I get when you say that you love me!" and he was like " Me too." and I go " Is it kinda like you don't care if Im fucking screaming at you as long as your talking me?" and he was like " Yeah". .......Fuuuuuuuuuck. That's how i felt with Steven. He told me that on Sunday he's gonna prove he loves me because Im stayin the night at Jill's and J is supposed to be up here so we can all sneak out.
I talked to him today and he still keeps telling me he loves me. I don't know what to fucking do. I have people telling me to give him a second chance and I got people telling me to drop him. Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
But for some reason, I just got "Listen To Your Heart" by DHT stuck in my head. Maybe it's a sign. | | |
| Well.
Im up north in St.Helen till prolly, Friday. 
Yesterday was..interesting. I found out some info about my boyfriend that worried the shit out of me. But later last night I talked to Justin for like 2 hours and I got everything figured out. He told me that Robby really does love me and shit. We talked about Robby and Amanda and our relationships with them. Amanda; I don't hate your boyfriend anymore. He's cool and we get along and most importantly he makes my Amanda happy so therefore I can't completely hate him. lol.
Well..I dunno what else to say so PeACe! | | |
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Hmmm. Let's see. Last time I updated was like last Tuesday? Si?
On Monday I didn't see Robby but someting interesting did happen. He called my house phone and was like "Samantha?" and my fucking jaw dropped and I was like "What!?" and he starts laughing and goes I mean "Sara?" and I go "..........Yeah" and he goes "Im up at the beach." and I go "So. What do you want me to do about it?" and he was like " Get your ass up here. I think shes pissed at me." and I was like " Just a little". But he swears up and down he doesnt know a Samantha. So Im gonna trust him on that one.
On Wednesday I went to Amanda's and we went up to the beach. Well the whole family went to the beach; Me,Amanda,Tiifany, C.J., Tayden and Mom. And we met up with Robby and Justin. Cause mom wanted to meet Justin and I wanted to see my baby. It was so cute, Robby kept comming up behind me when we were swimming and like holding my waist and hugging me! He like kept kissing my neck and shit. He was like " What would happen if you went home with a hickey?" and I was like "Um, my mom would kill me.". lol. Me and Him kept kissing and making out and Amanda and Justin kept like making out and shit. Amanda got in trouble for that tho, but we wont go there. Then on Tursday, Dubey and her mom and little dubey came over to Manda's and Me, Manda, and Dueby went to meet up with Robby and Justin. We had to convince Dubey it wouldnt be awkard for her to be around us and our boyfriends. lol. So we met up with them at BP and walked down to the Mill Pond. I took Robby's hat and I wore it for a lil bit and then I went to put it back on him and Robby reps GD meaning he wears blue and tilts his hat to the right and when I put it back on it I accidentily tilted it to the left. He flipped out. But he got over it. Sara's not allowed to wear red anymore. lol. But we went back to Dubey's house and we were supposed to ditch Justin n Robby before we got back to her house but Justin wiped out on the road so he was bloody so we took them back to Dubey's house.
I love it when Im in his arms! I never wanna let go! For once Im truely happy!
 
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Lots to update about:
Hmm.
I got out of summer school friday. I had to go out with my dad for dinner friday night because my birthday was last tuesday. Wooooooooot Woooooooooooot! lol. My birthday party was fun. Jennifer Ann, Kiley, Dubey, Heather, Payton, Amanda, and Jillian, I think that was everyone that showed. So a big FUCK YOU to people who were invited and didnt go UNLESS YOU TOLD ME YOU WEREN'T GOING TO MAKE IT. :) . There were some hott guys at the table next to us, and we were checking them out and they were checking us out. Let's list names: Jerome, Justin (brothers but not twins), Robby { :) , Tommy and Little fuck face..aka Christopher. Jerome was like 17, Justin is like 15, Robby is 14, Tommy is 15 despite him telling us he is 17, and Little Fuck Face is 9. So when my mom and my cousin went to take some shit back to my house Robby walks over and starts talking to us and eventually their whole group is talking to us. Before they left me and Jill put my bleep-bleep and my cell phone number in Jerome's cell. Later that night they called me. lol.
I get a call Sunday afternoon I get a call. It was Robby. He was like "Hey, Me and Justin are up at the beach. You and your friends should come up here.". Well, In the end Me and Heather went up there and hung out with them. It was so cute because Heather had her digital camrera with her and Robby was looking through the pictures on it and then he all of a sudden he gives Heather back her camrera really quick and goes "Heres a better picture" and grabs me and hugs me so Heather could take the pic. ( BTW Heather I want them pics we took that day to e-mail 'em to me please). Well, we left the beach Justin bleep-bleeps me and is talking to me and goes:
Justin: So do you got a boyfriend?
Me: Nope
Justin: Oh. You should go out with Robby. Because he likes you and you like him. Or at least it seems like you like him.
Me: How do you know Robby likes me?
Justin hands Robby the phone: Because I know I like you.
Me: Heh
Robby: Will you go out with me?
Me pretending that my phone broke up so I couldnt understand what he said: What?
Justin: This is Robby saying:
Robby: Will you go out with me
2 mintues later
Me: Yeah
Haha. So yeah. Me and Robby are going out now. 7-16-06.
So on Monday. I had two missed calls and two voicemails on my cell phone so I go to check it and they were both from Robby. The first one was "Hey baby. You need to call me" then the next one was "Hey baby. You need to call me" and then he started playing "You And Me" by Cassie on my voicemail. I was like "Awwwwh" and I was on my house phone with Amanda and I had it on speaker phone and she was like "Awwwwwwwwwwwwwh! It's so cute!". Another long story short Me, Heather, and Amanda met up with Robby and Justin yesterday, despite me being sick as hell, and Justin asks out Amanda so now they're going out. Its so cute!
So Yeah. Im done giving a fuck about what other people think I should do with my life. Keywords there: MY LIFE. I don't give a fuck what you nor anyone else thinks I should or shouldn't do. And I don't care if Im a hypocryt. I admit it. And Im fucking over being peoples girls who obviously aren't mine. Im not gonna sit here and keep secrets for someone who goes off and pops off at the mouth everytime I do something they don't agree with. Like I told my man " No one controls my life". My man can't even tell me what to do so what makes you think you can?
I AM WHO I FUCKING AM AND IF YOU DON'T LIKE IF FUCK OFF!
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Let me update about some shit I been wanting to update about..
Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
8th grade recigination/graduation. I had started crying the night before at the dance when they played Graduation by Vitamin C and Good Riddance by Greenday. Actually..everyone started crying. But yesterday morning in advisory we wall went into Mrs.Cornell's room and she played a slide show of pictures of us from 6th grade till now, and she had Good Riddance playing on it and I fuckin lost it and started ballin. Then I managed to calm myself down and the Heather and Kristin came up to me and were laughin and I followed then to see what they were laughin about and then like everyone in the room knew what was going on but me and then they told me I had surprise and Im like "What the fuck" and they like pointed out the window and I saw my sister walkin and then I started crying again. At this point everything was getting to me so yeah. Then I stopped crying and then I saw Dani and she came up and hugged me and I started crying again and then like everything kept me crying for like the first 10 mins of the ceremony and Mr.Kirkey looks at me and smiled..and I know he now figured me out.
But after reciginition was over I went out to breakfast with my mom and sister then I went up to Clover Beach. And there I met up with Amanda, Emilly, Ki, Dubey, Jerri and Heather. It was raining so I didnt really swim. Me and Jerri decided we were gonna go to church so after everyone else left her mom came and got us. We went and got some of my shit from my house cause I was gonna stay the night at Jerri's house. Then we went back to her house. Took showers and shit. Then went to Alpine to wait for the bus. I met this awesome kid named Doug. He's cool. He has his tounge pierced 3 times..it's so cool. We hung out with Chelsie, Miranda, Melanie, Mike (mel's boyfriend), Scott, Lee, and kinda Doug. It was cool. On the way to the church I was sitting with Melanie and Jerri and I was wearing my camo tank top and my boobs kept jiggleing. Mel looks at me and goes "Im gonna call you Jiggle Boobs" and I was laughing and I go " Everyone else gives me a nickname about my boobs..you might as well too".lol. Chruch was...interesting. It wasnt like a typical church. Kinda. Like we got there..chilled. Then went in for sevice. Then on the bus ride home...Scott sat in the very last seat, Me and Jerri sat together, Doug and some guy sat in front of us, and Lee sat across from Scott in the other back seat. So, cott leans over the seat and goes "So Sara, How big are you?" and I go "What, my tits?" and he was like "yeah" and I told him. And like they kept jiggleing on the ride back too. And Scott turns his cell phone on vibrate and puts it up to my tit and I was like "Nice Scott". Doug pinched by chest out of no where. And Lee kept making comments about my tits jiggling. Lee and Jerri were flirting. lol. When we got back to Alpine and were waiting to be picked up Doug puts his arms out and likes starts walking towards me, so I hugged him. lol. Before the bus picked us the cops came up there and stopped us..lol..it was funny. It's funny, now that I don't have feelings for Scott, we can get along. lol
The 13th and 14th (well..the 13th and some other day):
I spent the nights at my wifeys~!
Friday,June 23nd:
I went to Heather's to camp out in a tent, because I'd never slept in a tent nor have I ever been camping. lol. Im too girlie for that shiiiiiit. lol. So I get over there and Andrew is there. Andrew and Heather have been friends for...forever. Like 2-3 years ago I liked Andrew and wanted to go out with him because he looked like my ex. lol. So yeah. We're hanging out and I find out Dubey is gonna come stay the night with us. Well after Dubey got there all 4 of us were chillen in the tent and Heather had brought out a box of chocolate chip granola bars, eventually Me and Andrew were throwing them at eachother. lol. Well..Christine lives two house down from Heather so Heather decided to be nice and invite her to hang out with us even tho we dont like her. lol. So eventually, at like 11 we decided to go swimming. Haha. Needless to say, WE FROZE! So Christine and Heather got out of the pool and Me,Dubey, and Andrew stayed in. We decided to ask Heather if we could get naked in her pool at first she wouldnt let us but eventually she got annoyed with us, so she said whatever. So me and Dubey go to the back of the pool and Andrew was in the front of the pool and I go "Andrew, you wont do it" and he goes "I wont?" and I go "Nope" then he lifts two pairs of shorts ( the swim trunks and his boxers he was wearing) out of the water. Me and Dubey half ass took off our tops. lol. Me and Andrew were flirting all night till he had to go home. lol.
Saturday, June 24th:
Well Me, Heather, Kristin and Andrew went to Summer Happenings. Yeah. We had fun. Eventually we met up with Shane, Linzi, Megan and Jerri. We went back (all of us except Megan and Linzi ) to Dubey's house. We were all chillen in her crawlspace when Dubey goes into her sisters room and gets her fuzzy red hangcuffs and the cop-ish handcuffs.Hehe. Well..it was Me,Jerri and Andrew in the crawlspace and Andrew decideds to take the cop-ish handcuffs and handcuff one of his hands. Not a very smart move. Then Jerri takes the other cuff and attaches it to two hangers. Not a very smart move either. Dubey didn't know were the key was. So, we broke the hangers then went out to the garage and got a kro-bar and he broke them off of him. lmao. It was so funny. After we left S.H. we went back to Heathers. Well all of us but Jerri cause she had to go home before then. So I layed on Heathers bed, and Andrew layed on top of me. We layed on her bed for a while. I started lookin though some pics Heather had layin on her bed and I found one of me in 7th grade and I like handed it to Andrew who was laying on my stomach and I go "haha. Me in 7th grade." and Andrew goes " Without the lipstick, you were hott". I was laughin. He told me I wasnt fat and that I wasnt ugly. I was like oh hell naw. Now Heathers dad hates me even more because we all (Shane,Kristin,Heather, Me, and Andrew) were all layin on her parents bed, and of course Andrew was on me and I was like layin on my side so his head was on his stomach and one of his hands was on my ass.Then Heather and Shane go into Heathers room...ALONE and Andre decideds to put his hand between my legs and start playing in nervous. After about 2 mins of that he realize that shit dont make me nervous and he moved his hand to my knee.. Good timing cause in walks Heathers dad. Haha. Yeah. Oh yeah. Eariler in the day when we were on Heathers bed, she looks at us and was like "You two should hook up" or something like that and then Anderw was like " I would but Im only here in the summer" (he lives in ohio)....I used to think Andrew was hott. Now I don't. Haha, Karma's a bitch aint it Andrew.
This past week:
School. Nothing interesting. WAIT! I lied. Me and Lemual have been flirting so effing much in Summer School. Funny thing is, he's got a girl. ;)
I think I've said enough now..lol
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